Sunday 24 April 2016

a letter to a med student from someone with a chronic illness

dear med student 
i know your tired i know your over worked and very stretched i know you see hundreds of people every day walk in and out of those hospital doors and i know to you thats just normal 
but please understand when we are walking through those doors we are scared , terrified , tired in pain , we are at our absolute worse to be going there 
i know you see people who try it on and i know that clouds your veiw and makes you question people when they dont 'look' like they are in pain , but please understand most of us really are we dont want to be in hospital any more than anyone else , if we dont look like we are in pain maybe we are so used to the daily pain levels and the constant pain that goes along with the illness we have that pain that would have someone on the floor doesnt do that to us , we have learned our own ways of coping with pain . maybe we are so used to hiding our pain from friends and family and anyone we need to that the act continues even when we want to scream and shout and swear in agony the act goes on it becomes habbit it becomes natural to hide it 
dear med student , when you say 'you are on alot of medication' understand i dont want it any more than you want it for someone , im in my early 20's and i take 30 plus tablets a day , please understand my body needs most of this to function my body needs this to work , its usually consultants that prescribe all these some may even be given by your boss 
dear med student if you dont know please dont try and guess please dont take risks , i have a rare disease im used to people not knowing but guessing can cause damage or at the very lease make the wait for an answer to anything new even longer 
dear med student when i give answers to questions or say exactly what is going on with my body please dont tell me 'do not google this or google os not a dr' just because im saying exactly what is wrong doesnt mean that i googled anything , the majority of the time its because ive lived this my whole life most things that can go wrong have gone wrong more than once im going by my own experience please dont invalidate my experience because usually when i have syymptoms ive had before and i think i know whats wrong im usually right on point with whats going on 
dear med student , i may have depresssion and anxiety but these are not the cause of everything , depression and anxiety will not and can not ever change my genetic make up weather i had mental illness or not id still have genetic disorders thats not going to change and soemtimes its the genetic illness that leads to mental illness i mean if you spent the best part of a year in hospital unable to eat or drink in constant pain and discomfort with uncontrolable nausea and daily dislocations wouldnt you get a little depressed too ? 
dear med student please understand the hospital is the last place anyone wants to be and most people when ill much preffer their own beds please dont let the minority cloud your veiw of the majoirty please just try to be empathetic and listen it goes a long way and will likley get you a long way too , 
understand that if you listen and take someone seriously it helps them to trust you and be hinest about their symptoms which in the long run will really help them even if they have somthing incurable it may help the acute symptoms they present with

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